I haven’t been writing in my blog lately and there are so many reasons to list. First, I’m a bit of a perfectionist, so I will sit on a blog post until I think it’s perfect. However, I’m realizing that perfection is not the goal of my blog. The goal is transparency and to share my experiences with those who are also struggling.
I received much-needed confirmation today that my blog is needed in my community because of all of the hurt and frustration we’re all suppressing right now. I thank God for the validation I needed to keep moving this blog forward. It was important for me to hear from Him what he wanted me to do and to give me the strength to do it.
I’m processing a lot of life-changing situations. I filed for divorce last year and that is still in the works; I have several new responsibilities at work that have completely consumed my time; and of course, here comes Ms. Corona ruining everybody’s life!
Needless to say, I’ve been struggling. I do need to do a better job of processing those big emotions out loud rather than bottling them all within. I was being crushed by the weight of it all and ended up back in counseling, which is totally ok. I had to do what I needed to do to keep myself afloat to deal with my life.
Being single now has brought on a whole new set of challenges with meeting new people and understanding myself as a “girlfriend”. I’m trying to understand how my mental health and past traumas play a role in how I interact with new people and establishing healthy boundaries. I look forward to sharing about my trials with dating as well.
I hope you are seeing God’s grace in this moment as we try to maneuver through a pandemic. We are all in this together!
I have so many posts I’ve been sitting on and I’m looking forward to releasing them all! I hope you all will continue to engage with me and let me know how you’re doing.
Talk to you all soon!